30 Days of Truth - Day 3

If you recall, I started a "30 Days of Truth" series a couple months ago. As promised, I am continuing. I knew I wouldn't be posting one a day (or even one a week) but as part of my 2011 resolution to keep my blogging going strong, I'm going to take on another question today while my family naps.

We're up to Day 3...

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Hmm...that's tough. I am pretty headstrong about refusing to live a life of regret.

We are human and we all make mistakes. Every decision in my lifetime, good or bad, has led me to this exact life...this exact moment. So if I hang on to those bad choices...times when, looking back I can see, I probably should've acted otherwise, I'm not really sold...because had I done that, I wouldn't be where I am right this very second. And I love where I am right this very second.

I cannot know for certain if the choices I have made have brought me to a place that is better or worse than where I would be otherwise, but I don't care. I CAN'T care. Because I am who I am and I am where I am...and that's just what it is. (Very "Butterfly Effect"...I know.)

I thought long and hard about this before answering and that's really the best answer I can give. :)

Day 2 - 30 Days of Truth

This is part of the "30 Days of Truth" series I'm taking part in at Live Beautiful. As I mentioned in my original post on it, I am not doing a post/day...just whenever I feel like answering the questions...so it will take me longer than 30 consecutive days to finish, but I'll get there.

Day 2: Something You Love About Yourself

I can honestly say that I love that I put others before myself.

There’s that old saying, “You can please some of the people all of the time and all of the people some of the time…but you can’t please all the people all the time.” I think it’s my life’s mission to prove otherwise. LOL!

I genuinely care about my friends and family and will do everything within my power to make sure they are happy, healthy, well-fed, and entertained. I’m kind of the “mom” of our group or friends (fitting, being that I have several kiddos! LOL!) and I take it upon myself to make all the snacks and make sure everyone is comfy and has enough to eat/drink at gatherings. Weekends at the race track too, I make sure everyone eats and is ready to go for race time.

I am very likely to put others before myself, and well I’ve had some people tell me that’s a downfall (or that it can be), I disagree. I am a firm believer in karma, and know that putting out positive energy and giving to those around me will come back to me in the end.

xo

30 days of Truth - Day 1

This is part of the "30 Days of Truth" series I'm taking part in at Live Beautiful.

Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself.

Ohhhh geez. Now don't get me wrong...I'm not all into self-loathing or anything, but on certain days (and today just happens to be one of them) I could really go off on a tangent about things I dislike about myself.

• I'm a procrastinator...and I suffer unnecessarily because of it.
• My body is just ICK. (Yes...I realize I just had a baby but I am simply miserable with how I look...)
• As I get older, I get more and more impatient...

But more than any of those things, I struggle with the "J" word...yes...jealousy.

Ugh. I see photographer's making it happen. SAHM's able to stay home with their babies. Fairytale romance in movies. Lottery winners. And while I am honestly and truly happy for all of these people, I wish so badly sometimes to have what they have. It's frustrating and counter-productive, but sometimes I can't help myself. I think what frustrates me about it more than anything (well, besides that fact that jealousy is pointless) is that I just need to DO something about it to get where I want to be in life. Obviously I can't will myself to win the lottery, and I am rational enough to know that "The Notebook" is a story...not real life...but I CAN keep doing my photography and hopefully someday will be making enough that I will be able to BE the Stay at home Mom I want to be. I just have to keep at it and not let the nasty old green-eyed monster get me down.




Some days, if you ask me if I have jealous tendencies, I'd say F@#% that. But on a crappy day like I've had today...yeah...sometimes I am. And I guess I just need to get over it or do something about it. And someday, I will...and that's the TRUTH.

xo

Can You Handle the Truth?

All over blog-land, people are jumping on the "30 Days of Truth" band wagon. I love honesty. I think it is important to be honest with others and equally important to be honest with ourselves. I have "truth" tattooed in white ink on the inside of my right wrist. I have trust issues...that I'd like to think are getting better. But I need to feel surrounded by truth on a daily basis.

Here are the daily questions. I will start Day 1 in a separate post, and each day will link each question back to this post so you can click on the day and see the post with my corresponding answer. I probably won't do it for 30 consecutive days, but I'll get them all done.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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